Thought you might be interested in what my workspace looks like. I know I'm always interested in seeing what other creators' studios look like. Very wide so just posting a link to spare your friends pages.

Decided I'm not happy with my book. For the most part, scrapping it and starting over. I believe real writers call this the second draft?

Tiny San Diego 1 by *EddiePerkins on deviantART

First try at this kind of effect. Eh, kinda works.

Just turned some old, sprouting potatoes, some also old and sprouting onions, some dried out mushrooms, the unused remnants of some forgotten, back-of-the-fridge salsa jars, a handful of stale corn tortilla chips, some just-this-side-of-slimy, off brand Little Smokies, some freezer burned corn, some generic V-8, a bit of Worcestershire sauce, one lime worth of juice and some spices into the most awesomest stew ever.

I was tagged by no one with this meme I just created. List five things you want out of life.

1. To make a living* being creative, working on my own stuff or other's.
2. To live somewhere with a large creative community. Portland would be nice.
3. To have some close by acquaintances, maybe even friends, who get me and actually like me for who I am and not who I pretend to be.
4. To be healthy.
5. ... Anything else is gravy.

* "Make a living"-- To be able to keep a roof over my head, eat and pay for utilities. To me, success is more about happiness than wealth.

http://atomicpanda.com/omgsale.html

The link above and here: http://atomicpanda.com/omgsale.html and one more time here: http://atomicpanda.com/omgsale.html goes to a page I've put up where I'm trying to sell anything I can in order to be able to pay rent while I look for a new job. Still haven't found one...

So anyway, please, check it out. And, please spread the word. I really could use the help. Thanks!

Overslept and can't get going today. But, I absolutely have to get going today. I guess I could go slowly?

Poison Ivy by *EddiePerkins on deviantART

Would anyone be interested in this? Like $20. Trying to do some girl drawing to sell because I'm super broke.

Anyone out there want to buy autographed photos of the full first season cast of Star Trek Voyager or a large color drawing of Dog Supreme by Ben Dunn. Christ, I've got like the worst "collectibles."

http://cgi.ebay.com/Coraline-Movie-Collectors-Skeleton-Key-Neil-Gaiman-RARE_W0QQitemZ200427973963QQcmdZViewItemQQptZLH_DefaultDomain_0?hash=item2eaa702d4b#ht_3269wt_1165

I didn't know there were metal Coraline keys floating around out there. I want one! Even though this seller is full of shit claiming that they were only given out to VIPs and people who worked on the film (they were actually used for the marketing campaign, oh, and that's why he has more than ten of them) I'd still gladly give him $10.50 for one. ... But, I can't spare $10.50.

Ah well, it's definitely on my list of things to try and get when I can afford it.

Got some friends from Texas that I haven't seen in forever down in San Jose right now. I had the idea of going down to visit them tomorrow but I just can't afford to. There'd be the gas, food and pass to a con I'm really not interested in.

Ah well. I won't be poor forever. Unless, you know, I die while poor or get some sort of M Prize life extension and never make anything of myself before the universe burns out.

Filled out so many job applications this week that my eyes are shot. Wearing my glasses a lot now.

Feeling slightly better about things this morning. Forgot to take into account that I'll be getting a check on the 5th. It's not much and I'll still be short but not as short. Slightly less desperate, I guess. Also, if unemployment gets back to me soon and I get a check from them this month that will help some. If I could just sell some art and or stuff things will look a lot better.

Still need a job like yesterday. And, still looking for any commission sales I can get... My stomach hurts.

Well, off down the hill to apply for more jobs.

Hey, anyone know how much a Haruhiko Mikimoto autograph would go for? Turns out I have seven in one print portfolio thing. Seems way back when I got Mikimoto to sign all but three of the large prints in this portfolio.

Just wondering, any of you know how much I should ask for if I sell them. Also, which would make more selling them individually or as a full set?

I wish I had more stuff that's worth anything. Would really help out to have something to sell in situations like this.

Pics:

I haven't found a job and I'm almost totally broke. I'd need to have a job like right now to be able to make it though next month. Don't even know how I'll make rent coming up. If any wants a commission, swear to god, you got me over a barrel here, will work cheap. I'm desperate. Let me know!

If anyone knows of any work let me know. If you spread the word about my losing my job and being dire straights, please do. This really is an emergency. Any help would be appreciated.

Poor Knives. Be it love or addiction, it hurts not getting your fix.

Marker, color pencil, acrylic paint, white charcoal pencil, and silver ink on some sort of crappy recycled chipboard card stock. 8.5 X 11 inches.

Sort of a follow-up, title-wise at least, to my Knives Chau, Scottaholic pic. It's old and terrible so, no link for you.

Knives belongs to Brian Lee O'Malley. Radiomaru.com If you haven't read his Scott Pilgrim series, I'm glad I'm not you.

One of the New Years resolutions I haven't started keeping yet is to present a positive, confident face to the general public.

So, even though I'm depressed and broke and hate everything I do and all that bullshit I'm going to try and keep that out of the public eye. I have a strong suspicion that, art being roughly equal, customers would rather buy from an upbeat or, at least, emotionally neutral creator than a broody, whiny ball of negativity, no matter how justified that negativity may be.

Yeah, time for my brave face or game face or some other face that isn't this face T_T I'll still post accurate news about myself. Not going to make stuff up. But, I'll try to positive it up some. Bright side and all that.

I'll still bitch on my friends locked posts. Hurray, right guys?

Who knows. Maybe faking positive might, possibly create some positive. Maybe?

Anyway, same goes for Facebook if I can figure out how to do public and friends only posts there. Very much same with DA. As my, more or less, main online art gallery it's really the last place for gloomy crap. Twitter, I got no clue. Might still have some downer shit there but at least it'll be short.

I just hope this doesn't backfire. People thinking stuff is great with me when it's not. Not that, I guess, that would cause any problems. Maybe I'll miss out on some pity sales but I don't want those anyway. Though, if anyone wants a commission, good lord, now would be sooo great. Rent coming up and all that...

Right, so, I'll leave this public. It'll get buried fairly quick and any new people who come my way will just think I'm, em... normal.

Tiny little color owl doodle on flap of a priority mail box. Guessing about two inches square. Marker and acrylic paint.

Another of the most obnoxious things about myself, often when I post something on the internet I rather pathetically obsess about comments or the lack of comments instead of just getting going on the next thing. This despite my rational knowledge that this behavior is counterproductive and unhealthy.

It's one of my resolutions to avoid this kind of thing. If I make something and like it (well, don't hate it) and the person who bought it liked it that should will be enough.

'Course that brings me to the whole hating my own stuff thing that I've been struggling with ever since one night in the late '90's back in Austin...

One of the most obnoxious things about myself, I feel most creative at just about the same time I feel most like going to bed. Wonder what would happen if I just fought off sleep and stayed up writing or drawing, other than being a fail zombie at work the next day.

Edit: By the way, here's the commission I finished yesterday. http://atomicpanda.com/post/aquagirlcomfinishpost.jpg Not bad for some one who literally had not draw anything in six months.